February 20, 2008 Day 307
Lately I notice myself becoming more obsessed, intense, tense and irritable. I have totally lost perspective on life. I go at my art business like a fiend, working all day, seven days a week, ignoring Adrian and feeling guilty, not taking the daily walks that I need for my own mental and physical health, and finding every thing and every one around me a "burden."
It's time to lighten up!
I am so fortunate to be able to be a full-time artist at this point in my life, but if I don't find a balance and perspective, I will kill the joy of it.
Maybe instead of continually adding things to my "to do" list, I should start crossing some off? Oh, the horror, the horror!
Some of my angst came out in this drawing, done in calligraphy pens:
Drawing #313 12" x 9"
Then I had a good talk with Adrian, and in the afternoon, a great walk with my neighbor through the snow-covered woods. It's the walk that finally relieved my tension. Duh!
(Note: There is a gap between the dates I'm writing and posting in order to give me time to get ahead.)
